Sadness...

I used to live my life in a cell of gold,
my body freeze when the night is cold
alone, without somebody to hold
holding my sanity to unfold

i can’t stop my tears to fall ceaselessly
sadness pains me excruciatingly
longing chilled my body intensely
changes scared me undeniably

if only i can hold back the time
if only i could erase my fears on my mind
if only i can choose my time
if only being happy is just a state of mind

many questions haunts me everyday
wondering where to find my way
in my world i don’t wanted to stay
this is my heart is begging to say

i envy the bird cuz they can freely soar the sky
and without fear they can fly so high
i wonder how the sun greet each morning with a glaze
and why i always caught my self in a haze?

if only i could make my life so simple then,
dealing life without fear to bend
if only i can pretend to fake a smile
just to greet the world with a simple Hi

yet, i evoke my worries to remain untold
dwelling in sadness in my own world
embracing the silence with me
maybe in sadness, i am not bound to be set free.

melanie apolonio,r.n..